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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I didn't knew what am i feeling till the feeling gets stronger
and yearning to see her, to contact her gets stronger
day by day, i seems to lost all my focus on important things
all i can think about is nothing but her.
Finally, we planned to meet up
Remember it was somewhere during my prelimary exams
The next day i am having English prelim yet i spend my whole night till morning 6am with her
doing nothing but chatting away
I do not know how it starts or how it ends
we just have plenty of things to talk, to do in the middle of the night
Well as usual i slept during exam
Hack care, as long as i get to see her
i will be contended
days past, months past
I can comfirm my feelings
that i have fallen in love with Yumiko
How i longed to confess
but i know i can't
because i am still attach with Yuki
My girlfriend whom we have been together for 1 years plus
I long to break up the relationship
but, can't Yuki would threaten to commit suicide
I wouldn't want to hurt her too,
she was still the one that i once loved
so i don't bare to hurt her too.
Pondering with thoughts i still go for it,
that is to tell Yumiko how i feel
I don't know what my answer will be
but just hope for the best and prepare for the worst
she answer my question "How do you feel about me"
few days later
She did have feelings for me
This made me want to end my past relationship
Firm about it,
but yet the threatening never stops
so this on and off thing last for 2 and a half years
Things changes drastically during this 2 and a half years
I went Ngee Ann polytechnic
while Yuki quit school and went for a full time job
but for this 2 and a half years we never stopped contacting
Though sometimes we did stop
but not for long
In the middle i remembered
Yumiko told me she did for have feeling for me already
At that point of time,
i typically broke down
tears filled my eyes
nothing can stop the tears from flowing
just like the tap which flows out unlimited water
this is how i felt at that time.
But i can't be selfish,
i know it's been so long and nothing have happen
we are still on square one
not even move a single step forward
I tried to let go,
but i fall even harder
Though first love is the hardest to forget but
in the middle when you really met someone you love
the 3rd or 4th or even 5th person that you love may be the hardest to let go
I tried to forget,
i tried to let go
i even tried to love again
but to no avail
Can't means can't
no point forcing
i still loves Yumiko
Finally Yuki came to her senses
let me go
but it's too late
everything have been too late
didn't cherish when i have
too late to regret
Yumiko has got her special someone...
....To be continue Part 3
on 1:38 PM
